Wednesday, 9 May 2012

I have moved...

I decided that my blog was more focused on exercise than I originally thought and so I have created a new blog
www.willmoveforcake.blogspot.com
to detail my journey to becoming the fitter, slimmer person I want to be.

Hope to see you there

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Tuesday, 27 March 2012

A Wee Cooking Interlude

This weekend was absolutely gorgeous weather, especially for Scotland at this time of year so P and I spent as much time outside as possible.
Friday night P cooked me a delicious dinner of pan seared tuna steak on top of stir fry veg and rice noodles.

The tuna had a glaze on it of honey and soy sauce at the very end which I actually thought could have done with a bit less honey but that probably because I don't actually like honey and the one I had might have been a bit too strong for this dish - like I said I don't really like honey so I'm definitely not an expert at the different varieties of which I know there are plenty.

I ended up putting lots of lemon juice over my steak and I thought that made it taste a lot better - in the end not a disaster but maybe not something I'd try again in terms of the honey anyways, the tuna was delicious though.
P also made crispy rice noodles which basically means you heat up some oil in a pan and tip some rice noodles in it and they puff up and go crazy!!

I'd like to say that I had only my boiled noodles but the crispy ones are so delicious I ate more than I maybe should have!!

On Saturday because it was such a gorgeous day P and I decided to go for a little walk in the sunshine and ended up staying out for an early dinner because we were going to see an ice hockey match that evening.
We went to an Italian on Byres Road that we like called Tony Macaroni's, I'm pretty sure I've mentioned it before on here.
We sat outside in the sunshine and I had a lovely pasta dish which is basically pasta in meat sauce but the meats are veal, beef and Italian sausage - what more could a carnivore want!!

P had an amazing concoction which I'd never seen before - a pizza with chips cooked onto it!! I apologise if any of you reading this are Italian but it looked amazing - terrible for you but it certainly looked delicious.

Sunday was another wander in the sunshine but this time we walked into town and went to see The Muppets at the movies which I thought was brilliant and would happily see again - I may even buy the DVD when it comes out!! I'm allowed to be a big kid every now and again.

Then we went to a running shop in town called Run4It where they have a video analysis setup to analyse your running movement and fit you for shoes that are the best for your stride. I currently run in a pair of £5 trainers I got on sale ages ago and I figured that if I was going to be running a lot more then I might as well get a proper pair of runners. Its also my birthday in May and I couldn't think of anything that my parents could get me so I thought I'd ask for a pair of my specially chosen running shoes.

Then on Sunday night P and I baked for the first time in ages. We made Carrot Cake Cupcakes with a Cream Cheese Frosting and Triple Chocolate Brownies
Both have gone down very well at work which is always a good sign and also means I haven't spent my free time at home eating cake!!
Carrot Cake Cupcakes


Brownies

If I'm being totally honest I think the brownies should have stayed in the oven a wee bit longer because they were more gooey than even I like them to be but they still tasted very chocolaty and yummy.

My training with T went well last night, I did a bit of boxing and arm work and then got on the treadmill for the first time since my injury. I just went at a fast walk up an incline to test what my calf would do and the good news is it was fine!! I have been doing the exercises my physio told me to do so I'm pretty sure that has helped and fingers crossed by next week I'll be going for a light jog and starting to build up to running once again.

My weigh in this morning went as expected - I put on half a pound which after all the eating I did at the weekend, I'm OK with - especially if this lovely weather continues because I'll be spending more time outside and I'm never as hungry in the sunshine as in winter and when I do eat its salads and light meals at night time too.

Have a good week
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Carrot Cake Cupcakes with a Cream Cheese Frosting (from BBC Good Food)

Ingredients
175g brown muscovado sugar
100g wholemeal self-raising flour
100g self-raising flour (I just used 200g plain self-raising flour because I couldn't find wholemeal)
1 tsp bicarbonate of soda
2 tsp mixed spice
zest of 1 orange
2 eggs
150ml sunflower oil
200g carrots, grated

For the icing
100g butter, softened
300g soft cheese
100g icing sugar, sifted
1 tsp vanilla extract
orange coloured sprinkles to decorate

Method
Heat oven to 180C / 160C fan / gas 4 and line a 12 hole-muffin tin with cases (I used small cupcake cases and got 20 out of this mixture)
In a large mixing bowl, mix the sugar, flours, bicarbonate of soda, mixed spice and orange zest.
Whisk together the eggs and oil then stir into the dry ingredients with the grated carrot.
Divide the mixture between the cases and bake for 20-22 mins until a skewer poked in comes out clean.
Cool on a wire rack before icing.

For the icing beat the butter until really soft then beat in the soft cheese, icing sugar and vanilla.
Use a palette knife or piping bag to swirl the icing on top of the cakes, then sprinkle with decorations.


Brownies (from BBC Good Food)

Ingredients
185g unsalted butter
185g dark chocolate
85g plain flour
40g cocoa powder
50g white chocolate
50g milk chocolate
3 large eggs
275g golden caster sugar


Method
Cut 185g unsalted butter into smallish cubes and tip into a medium bowl. Break 185g best dark chocolate into small pieces and drop into the bowl. Fill a small saucepan about a quarter full with hot water, then sit the bowl on top so it rests on the rim of the pan, not touching the water. Put over a low heat until the butter and chocolate have melted, stirring occasionally to mix them. Now remove the bowl from the pan. Alternatively, cover the bowl loosely with cling film and put in the microwave for 2 minutes on High. Leave the melted mixture to cool to room temperature.
While you wait for the chocolate to cool, position a shelf in the middle of your oven and turn the oven on to fan 160C/conventional 180C/gas 4 (most ovens take 10-15 minutes to heat up). Using a shallow 20cm square tin, cut out a square of non-stick baking parchment to line the base. Now tip 85g plain flour and 40g cocoa powder into a sieve held over a medium bowl, and tap and shake the sieve so they run through together and you get rid of any lumps.
With a large sharp knife, chop 50g white chocolate and 50g milk chocolate into chunks on a board. The slabs of chocolate will be quite hard, so the safest way to do this is to hold the knife over the chocolate and press the tip down on the board, then bring the rest of the blade down across the chocolate. Keep on doing this, moving the knife across the chocolate to chop it into pieces, then turn the board round 90 degrees and again work across the chocolate so you end up with rough squares.
Break 3 large eggs into a large bowl and tip in 275g golden caster sugar. With an electric mixer on maximum speed, whisk the eggs and sugar until they look thick and creamy, like a milk shake. This can take 3-8 minutes, depending on how powerful your mixer is, so don't lose heart. You'll know it's ready when the mixture becomes really pale and about double its original volume. Another check is to turn off the mixer, lift out the beaters and wiggle them from side to side. If the mixture that runs off the beaters leaves a trail on the surface of the mixture in the bowl for a second or two, you're there.
Pour the cooled chocolate mixture over the eggy mousse, then gently fold together with a rubber spatula. Plunge the spatula in at one side, take it underneath and bring it up the opposite side and in again at the middle. Continue going under and over in a figure of eight, moving the bowl round after each folding so you can get at it from all sides, until the two mixtures are one and the colour is a mottled dark brown. The idea is to marry them without knocking out the air, so be as gentle and slow as you like - you don't want to undo all the work you did in step 4.
Hold the sieve over the bowl of eggy chocolate mixture and resift the cocoa and flour mixture, shaking the sieve from side to side, to cover the top evenly. Gently fold in this powder using the same figure of eight action as before. The mixture will look dry and dusty at first, and a bit unpromising, but if you keep going very gently and patiently, it will end up looking gungy and fudgy. Stop just before you feel you should, as you don't want to overdo this mixing. Finally, stir in the white and milk chocolate chunks until they're dotted throughout. Now your mixing is done and the oven can take over.
Pour the mixture into the prepared tin, scraping every bit out of the bowl with the spatula. Gently ease the mixture into the corners of the tin and paddle the spatula from side to side across the top to level it. Put in the oven and set your timer for 25 minutes. When the buzzer goes, open the oven, pull the shelf out a bit and gently shake the tin. If the brownie wobbles in the middle, it's not quite done, so slide it back in and bake for another 5 minutes until the top has a shiny, papery crust and the sides are just beginning to come away from the tin. Take out of the oven.
Leave the whole thing in the tin until completely cold, then, if you're using the brownie tin, lift up the protruding rim slightly and slide the uncut brownie out on its base. If you're using a normal tin, lift out the brownie with the foil. Cut into quarters, then cut each quarter into four squares and finally into triangles. These brownies are so addictive you'll want to make a second batch before the first is finished, but if you want to make some to hide away for a special occasion, it's useful to know that they'll keep in an airtight container for a good two weeks and in the freezer for up to a month.

Wednesday, 21 March 2012

Still Going Well

This week is shaping up to be a good one, the weather seems to be turning from our chilly winter into a bright and clear spring time
This weekend was the first time I'd seen clear blue skies over Glasgow for a while and it was great to have a wander in the sunshine.
I took this picture at the top of Buchanan Street in Glasgow pretty hastily on my iPhone which is why the buildings aren't in the best focus but I think that highlights the lovely blue sky even more. Fingers crossed this is a sign of things to come!!

This weekend was quite a busy one with P's colleague's wedding reception on Friday night which was good fun and a nice chance to meet some more of P's workmates. I did however have a nice but slightly stressful start to the evening.
I was due to go out on the Saturday night for my friend K's birthday and had picked out my new favourite dress which also happens to be the only one that is the right size for me so I'd decided to wear another of my favourite dresses that I bought for Christmas for the wedding reception on Friday night.
However, when I put it on it was literally hanging off me!! I know its a terrible predicament to be in, oh no my clothes are too big for me!! Poor me!! But standing there on Friday night already a bit late to meet P literally not knowing what to wear wasn't the most fun ten minutes of my life.
So I had to wear the dress I was going to wear on Saturday night and Saturday day time was taken up by rushing into town to try and find something to wear that night!! That also ended up in me buying lots of other clothes I wasn't intending to buy - but on the bright side I've now got a good selection of clothes to wear in the right size :-)
Saturday night was fun - especially meeting up with K and her friend A who we worked out I hadn't seen for nearly three years!! So that was a good chance to catch up with everyone - I drank slightly too much and also eating my body weight in crisps - has anyone here heard of Frazzles?! They were a new discovery for me and are very dangerous - bacon flavour corn snacks = awesomeness!!

Sunday was the day P decided to have a day off from working so we got up and had breakfast and then went out for a walk in the nice weather before heading to his parents house for a Mothers Day dinner with his grandparents there too. His mum made venison stew which was delicious - I'll have to get the recipe from her because it was really lovely.

Monday was back to work day and then a gym session with T which went well - I was a bit more tired than usual which I can't think of any other explanation than the drink and crisps I had at the weekend but I still worked my ass off and my stomach was hurting at the end from the amount of crunches I was made to do!!

Tuesday morning was weigh in day and I lost two pounds!! I don't really deserve to have lost that much considering my antics at the weekend but I'm going to take it and be a good girl this week in the hopes that my body doesn't suddenly realise what its been eating and put lots of weight on!!

Have a good week

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Friday, 16 March 2012

Just Curious...

So...
A little thing has been niggling at me recently - nothing bad I'm just curious who actually reads this blog and where everyone is in the world.

I've been writing this for a couple of months now and I'm not going to say I've had masses and masses of readers but there have been a few and being a girl I'm nosey and want to know who you are and say hi

So if you read this and fancy saying hi - let me know where you are in the world and drop me a comment

Have a great weekend - and for all of you that it applies to - Happy Mothers Day for Sunday

Tuesday, 13 March 2012

The dream is over... but I'm ok with it.

So my mental couple of weeks of weight dropping off me is officially over - I put on half a pound. So I'm not complaining at all and you'll understand when I've told you what I got up to last week...
Last Wednesday night I went out for a couple of drinks (I just had diet coke coz I'm boring at the moment!!) and some food with a friend I met at the gym S - yup I'm one of those now who has even met nice people at the gym!! I used to shy away from talking to anyone at all at the gym due to me being incredibly sweaty and red. I have no problem with being sweaty and red, the gym is pretty much the only place its acceptable to be red and sweaty but I'm not sure about you but its not a time I want to be talking to people and meeting new faces!!
Anyway I was in the gym a couple of months ago, on the cross trainer working away and this very energetic and chatty girl wearing THE MOST MENTAL leggings I've ever seen (I'm talking black with multi coloured letters all over them) got on the cross trainer next to me and just started chatting - and since then we've often been asked to get off equipment due to us chatting so much so we decided to actually leave the gym and meet up for a drink especially after we discovered that we live very close to each other. I'm always up for meeting new people and like I said S has so much energy that I figured it wouldn't be a boring drink.

So we went to a little bar called The Roxy on Great Western Road and I had pork chili con carne, trying not to eat all the rice because I'm trying to avoid carbs late at night - it was very good chili and I'd highly recommend the food there for cheap no nonsense grub.
S and I had a great time too - we have a lot more in common than I initially realised (there's generally only one topic of conversation when we're in the gym - the gym) and it'll be great to have another friend up here in Glasgow to meet up with for a wee blether. I've amassed a few friends over the four years I've been here but they're mostly people I've met at work and its nice to meet people from other walks of life too.

Friday I went to the pub again to meet up for some drinks with some old work colleagues from my old job which was really nice because I hadn't seen a lot of them for over a year - one friend L went away to have a baby the last time I saw her and the baby turned one the other day!! It always seems to be too long between catch ups!!
Anyway that night ended up in me and her having three bottles of wine between us and we also went to get some food and I had a pizza (I know naughty huh!!)and I'll admit I was drunk and not responsible for my actions!!

Then on Sunday night P and I went out for curry - I had a craving for something full of flavour and a little bit spicy probably from living on salad for the past month and my taste buds needed waking up a bit.
We went to a place called Mr India on Dumbarton Road and it was delicious, I had such a grin on my face all through the meal I think P thought I'd gone mad!! But the flavours were fantastic, spicy but not so much it blows your head off and I could taste all of the other flavours in the dish. I chose something called Lemon Chicken which was in a section designed for people who wanted a lighter, less calorific curry that didn't use any fats or oils in the marinade or cooking so I'm hoping I chose wisely.
Also I'm highly recommending the place because I asked how hot the lemon chicken was and when I got the answer medium - hot I was ready to change my choice to Chicken Tikka (my healthier standby in the curry world due to it not being coated in high fat sauce) the waiter quickly said did I want a milder version, then when they brought my dish they said if I tried it and it was too hot they would take it back and try something different!!
Also P ordered a curry but could he have lamb instead of chicken? Of course no problem!!
Brilliant service and evidence that the food is made fresh to order in the kitchen which will always get a thumbs up from me.

My training session with T went well last night - i was all fired up and ready to go and felt good when T said I had the hardest punch of any of the girls he trains, including his martial arts fighters!! So don't mess with me!! Ha ha

So I'm pretty happy with the fact that I only put on half a pound and I know that once I can get running again my weight loss will get another kick up the bum and I'll be right back into my training and closer to realising my new aim of completing a triathlon. I've also still got my swim in June so I should be fighting fit for that too as long as I don't do anything stupid from now on!!

Another reason I'm not too worried about this sneaky little half pound is because my weight loss looks like this...
 So as you can hopefully see, for some reason my body has a big loss and then slightly creeps up a little bit / stays the same and then I have another big drop again.
Until I realised this, I got really down about putting on weight for what seemed like no particular reason and then I'd get a really big loss which mystified me but I think I've come to terms with this. My body seems to want to hang on to weight for as long as possible until it really cant any more and then it drops a big amount all at once.
So I'm not going to go mental and eat lots of cake in the knowledge that I'm going to drop a big amount sooner or later but I'm going to eat sensibly and try not to get too down if the scales don't show what I'm wanting for a couple of weeks because hopefully I'll drop again in a few weeks.
Also I'm finally beginning to see the fruits of my labour in terms of my gym work and my arms especially are really getting some definition so I know that the scales maybe won't show such dramatic weight loss because I'm putting on muscle and toning up and I'm going to start looking at the measuring tape as well as the scales from now on.

So anyway - I'm still in the zone and enjoying getting fit and seeing the shape my body is taking. I'm also more certain than ever that I made the right decision to stop going to meetings, I knew I wouldn't have done well this week considering how naughty I've been but there was none of the usual stress, I was mentally prepared for the bad news and know that this week, barring birthday drinks for a friend on Saturday night, I'm going to be good and keep on track with my weight loss.
So its onwards and upwards for me and as far as I'm concerned its still looking rosy.

Have a good week whoever out there reads this

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Tuesday, 6 March 2012

Hoping this isn't a dream...

I've been holding off posting about my weigh in from last week mainly because I was scared it was a fluke.
Last week was my first week where I didn't go to my meeting and weighed myself at home - and I'll admit I felt guilty!! I know this is totally my journey and I need to do whatever I need to do to get where I want to be but I still felt like I was skiving even though I weighed myself! This didn't get any better when the next day my leader F texted me to see where I was! This was a combination of me not being there the week before either because like I've mentioned before, due to me going to see my Mum for her birthday and eating the totally wrong thing for Weight Watchers, I chickened out and didn't go to the meeting so F was checking up on me for the last fortnight. So I've explained to her what I'm going to do and at first she said that most people do better with a leader supporting them but even she admitted I always look terrified at weigh in!!
So anyway back to my weigh in last week and I lost 8 pounds!! 8 POUNDS!!
Like I've said above, I missed the week before due to being a wimp so I'm reckoning that Mum's Birthday weekend didn't do as much damage as I was thinking and I might have actually lost weight if I'd been brave enough to go to my meeting. Also I have started weighing myself on a morning instead of an evening when I usually would at my meeting so I've put that as my weight now but i would like to point out that I got home from work and changed into my 'weight watchers' clothes and weighed myself to see if weighing on a morning made such a big difference and I'd have still lost 6 pounds so I'd have still been very happy with that!!
Also my leg seems to be much better - I'm still not running on it for another couple of weeks but it seems to be doing pretty well in terms of movement and its completely pain free now.

The end of last week ended pretty badly, I got a migraine and another bad one that lasted three days in total - I went home from work and T sent me home from the gym because (I'm quoting) I looked 'horrific!!'
So Wednesday night was spent being sick, trying to fight the dizziness and generally not sleeping at all, I went to work on Thursday morning but I had to call it a day just before lunch because I still felt pretty sick and my eyesight was going quite blurry and I worried about being able to safely drive home - Also my job entails me sitting in front of a computer pretty much all day so that didn't help matters.
So Thursday afternoon was spent on the sofa wrapped up in my duvet and then after a quick visit from P who brought me some juice and a cuddle, I went to bed and tried to get some sleep.
Friday I managed to get into work but my head was still sore and I felt generally fuzzy but I only work until 2pm on a Friday so it passed pretty quickly and I went home and had a nice long shower and felt infinitely better after that.
Friday night P and I went to the Ice Hockey, we were playing the Cardiff Devils and although Braehead managed to claw their way back from being 4 - 0 down in the first period, they only managed to claw back 3 goals so after one hell of a fight, we were still the losing team.
It was also being played on Sky Sports and halfway through the game I got a message from an old uni friend who happened to be watching the match and spotted me in the crowd!!
I have only one photo from that match (once again taken on my iPhone) but i think its possibly one of the cutest ones I've taken.
During the breaks they got some junior ice hockey players on the ice for a five minute game and this little guy was on the ice...
He's THREE!!!
And he was a great skater... I can't skate at all so I'm incredibly jealous and he was skating all over the rink - literally, the coach had to keep going to get him because he would skate into the game that was going on further down the rink!
So that was a fun night even though we lost.

Saturday night we went out for a couple of drinks with P's friends - not a late one, just a couple of drinks and some good company.

Sunday my flatmate A and I went out shopping to spend some of my hard earned money to get me some new clothes that actually fit.
It went a lot better than I thought it would - i got a few really nice dresses and some cardigans and a couple of belts. Some of the dresses and cardigans were even a medium which felt amazing especially when I looked in the mirror and realised that I hadn't squeezed myself into them, they actually fit!!
I'll do a little fashion show and post some pictures soon I promise.
i still need to get some new work trousers and I want some new jeans and then I think I'm done until I'm the size below this when I'm going to really go out and buy a whole new wardrobe for the me that I'm going to be and the size I'm going to stay :-)

So, you're probably noticing that its Tuesday and I've mentioned above that I'm now weighing myself on a morning. And you'd be right.
I lost 2.5lbs!! Hence the title of this post - 8 pounds last week and 2.5 this week - the only thing I can whinge about for the last two weeks is that because I've actually lost weight, I'd have actually liked to have gone to my meeting so someone else could see the numbers!! But then again I'm sure there will be weeks when I put on weight and in that case I'll be glad when it's only me (and you guys) seeing it and I can deal with it, move on and try and do better next week.

So I'm a happy bunny at the moment - good training session with T last night, no migraine and considerably lighter than I was a couple of weeks ago!!

Have a good week - feel free to comment if you want.

Tuesday, 28 February 2012

In the Zone

I think I've been hiding for the past few weeks, from myself.
Yes my life recently has revolved around food but I've also been using it as an excuse to eat whatever I want, whenever I want. If I was a psychologist I would say that I've been scared to try - I'd been doing well recently and I think my old worry of failing has come back to haunt me and I basically I'm a scaredy cat and if I don't try then I can't fail - do you get my twisted logic?
But in the end it comes down to the same thing - I'm not going to be happy until I've lost this weight and being greedy and making excuses isn't going to make it happen
It hit me on Sunday night - P and I were on our way to the cinema after a lovely dinner that I had prepared (if I do say so myself) of burger and butternut squash chips (potato chips for P) and salad
Now I'm not sure if you've discovered Butternut Squash on the Weight Watchers plan but its zero pro points so butternut squash chips not only taste great but are zero points!! All I do is cut into chips spray with a couple of squirts of fry light, pop onto a baking tray and bake in the oven for about 40 minutes, season with salt and pepper and serve!!
For the burgers I took some extra lean steak mince, some salt and pepper, some diced and cooked onion and garlic and to try something different some diced and cooked Chorizo (2pp for 20g)
I'd highly recommend the chorizo addition to the burger by the way - I don't know if its a common thing but it imparts a great flavour too.
I mixed the ingredients together and formed it into two burgers - put it onto a baking tray and baked in the oven for about 20 - 25 mins
I had some pro points spare that day so I also grated 20g cheddar cheese (2pp) and melted it on top of the burger towards the end of the cooking time
Then I made up a side salad with lettuce, rocket, spinach, cucumber, tomato and peppers and served that with 1tbsp of Pizza Express Light House Dressing (1pp)

All of the above made for a delicious early dinner / very late lunch which was even nicer considering P and I had only eaten breakfast.

Anyway back to my epiphany - so after that lovely dinner, P and I set off to go to the cinema to see Woman in Black (very good film but also very scary!! I am a scaredy cat by the way so if you weren't scared then don't think less of me!!)
And while we were talking about going to the local newsagents to get a couple bottles of diet Coke I mentioned that I might get a Curly Wurly. I had three points left for the day and a Curly Wurly is 3pp so why not?!
Then P said to me 'No, don't - I don't want you to be upset again at your weigh in on Tuesday and besides you've just eaten a big dinner, you shouldn't want anything else'
And it was then that I realised that its not just me that's the only one having to put up with my excuses and moaning - P was suffering from it too, my pitiful cycle of eating whatever I want and then having the audacity to have a moan when I've put on weight!! Who do I think I am!!
And he (as usual) was right - I wasn't hungry, I didn't NEED to eat - I was just being greedy and it has to stop. There will come a time when I can have a treat and I can go to the gym and work it off but the time isn't now and if I want to be happier with myself I need to work out what my priorities are and do whatever I can to achieve them. And I know what it is - losing weight and to do that I'm going to have to make some sacrifices and that means stop being a pie and realise that if I do this right I could be the size I want to be by this summer, if I carry on the way I'm going.... I don't even want to think about it.

So this is me back in the zone and determined - thanks P :-)

In order to do this I've made a few decisions

Saturday night treat night
I'm going back to only allowing myself a treat on a Saturday night. Nothing extravagant but maybe a bottle of cider (Rekorderlig is my drink of choice and 7pp a bottle) or something sweet (I like the single portion Weight Watchers deserts) but something to look forward to and a reason to abstain during the week. It always tastes nicer when you feel you've deserved it and you've missed it in the first place.

Drink plenty of Water
I do try and drink as much water as possible but recently that has lapsed so I'm going to make sure I drink plenty of the stuff. I have it with no added sugar squash and even have it hot which is a great alternative to tea or coffee too.
I know there's a lot of speculation as to whether drinking the two litres of water actually makes a difference but I think the main thing it does for me is fill me up - if my stomach is full of water then it cant be wanting food can it?!

Continue with the Gym

At my session last night with T I really went for it - he even said to me that he thinks I try harder now that I'm conscious of my injured leg than when I was healthy!! I'm going to try and remember that when I'm back and fighting fit and remember that I can push myself harder than I think I can.

Quit Weight Watchers Meetings
I know this might seem a bit counter productive but I'm continuing with the Weight Watchers plan, just as an online member rather than a meetings member.
I always get the Weigh In dread before a Tuesday even if I'd followed the plan to the letter and gone to the gym for good measure which I thought was normal. But I've since been reading some members stories on the website and I've realised its maybe not as normal as I thought - most other people seemed to get excited before a meeting - waiting to see how much they've lost which is definitely not the case with me. My Weigh In dread generally starts on a Sunday morning which involves me analysing everything I've done over the weekend - regretting not going out for a run the morning before or indeed that morning, regretting that bottle of cider on the Saturday night even though I've pointed it etc. This continues to grow until Tuesday night when I have to get on those scales and face my leader and try and explain why I've not lost weight or justify my night out with work to her or even hide the fact that I had friends over for dinner and I ate pizza and cheesecake!! After the meeting I'm often so down that I want to reach for the nutella jar and eat it straight with a spoon! I don't do that by the way in case you're wondering - what good would that do?! Although I have to admit I have eaten nutella straight from the jar but I've put the jar on the scales and measure 15g (2pp). It gives me the little chocolate hit I need every now and again - don't judge me if you haven't tried it - it's great!! However, if you let me loose with the nutella jar after WW on a Tuesday night I'd probably eat the whole jar.
So I'm going to weigh myself and log my progress online instead - don't get me wrong, this isn't about me hiding, there are far too many people around me who know I'm on Weight Watchers and ask how I'm getting on to even think I could hide but I just don't think that feeling is good for me and I'm hoping being able to weigh myself not in front of others will help.
So in order for me to do this i bought these
Its the Withings WiFi Scale - which measures weight and body fat and lean mass and because its an all singing all dancing scale, it automatically, via my wireless, sends this data to my account so I can track it on a graph and keep track of it. I could also tell it to email T my data so he can keep track of it too. The jury is out as to whether I will or not!! Like I said before, I'm a scaredy cat!!

So.. Its probably more sophisticated than I actually need but I figured if I'm going to weigh myself at home, I'll have a set of scales that is not only accurate so I can be sure that I'm getting correct measurements but also "writes" down my stuff for me!!

Once again a long post but as you can probably tell I've had a lot going around in my head at the moment!!
So fingers crossed things start going well and I get back on track again

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